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two days left and im gonna miss you like hell.
see you on 17th march sayang , dont worry everything gonna be just fine.

sedih. ye sangat sedih.
pasti rindu setengah mati.

xoxo

king and queen of my heart

alhamdulillah syukur ke hadrat ilahi , sesungguhnya Allah maha penyayang dan jodoh semuanya di tangan Allah , kite hanya mmpu merancang tapi Allah yang menentukan.

dear ibu ,

As your daughter , i'll always pray for your happiness. im the one who never express my love towards you but pls be informed that i'll be the first one to turn out whenever you in need. i'll never forget what you've done to raise 3 of us. you had been in your hard time , been through thick and thin just to made us what we are today. what we are today is based on what you'd done. you never failed to give us support everytime we need it. you deserved to find your happiness after what you had face before. eventhough im not the one who will listen to all of your commands , i'll always love you and keep you in my heart.

march is coming and every relatives will attend your big day. i hope everything is done as you planned and i hope this happiness will last for eternity , tu doa kakak utk ibu :)

dear my father-to-be,

it's been the 13th years i've known you and to tell you the truth, you're the most amazing man i've ever seen. you treat us like your own flesh and bloods. you give us education and a place what we call home. even im the one who always hurt you mentally, pls be noted that you still a great father to us and im sorry for all the wrong doings throughout the years.

there's nothing special i want from you, i just want you to make my mom the happiest woman alive , take care of her and do treat her the way she deserve to be treaten. not forgotten, thank you for being the most responsible dad :)

ya-rabbal amin,

these are the pre-wedding photoshoot of my mom and stepdad , all photos are taken by lifebridal studio kota kinabalu sabah , kudos :)

harlina bt aman and muhammad harith muazzam hiew abdullah

semoga bahagia ke anak cucu :)

143 isn't a number , but it's a feeling.

hari ini awak cuti . kita dok rumah same same.

saya mencapap depan lappy , awak main game . saya sakit sakit blakang , awak urut blakang saya , saya tga kusyuk typing awak datang pelok saya dari blakang . saya bersyukur dapat awak and saya sayang awak sayang ♥ sumpah tk tipu ni haa.

oh lupe hari ni kite main masak masak , hehe ramai yg ckp awk makin berisi skarang.

rajin sungguh mencium dahi ♥

i now pronounce you husband and wife ,

u asyik asyik suh i blaja main bnde ni , siap na ajar i. tapi i tersangatlah noob and malas na belajar. i tau u nak i transfer chip kat u kan , haha i tktau main la bnde ni , kalau petville ke cafe world ke bole laa kot :D

your current addict , fb app : perfect poker , zz

i still remember our last conversation before we fall asleep last night .

you : you janji you stay dgn i smpai bile bile?

me : yeah laa , nape u nak i ngn u smpai bile bile ke?

you : yeahh i nk dgn u smpai bile bile.

*then you kiss dahi i and wish me goodnite as usual then we fall asleep ♥

isyaallah sayang ;') no matter who are you , what you did , i still love you like the first time i met you. i never have someone thoughtful the way you do. when everyone has walked out , you always there for me and give me strenght. you're my otherhalf , i got no 10 reasons in my hand why i should love you because i just love the way you are.

i love the way you smile , the way you touch my heart , the way you hold my hand in public , the way you say "iloveyou" , the way you stare at me , the way you kiss my forehead , the way you hug me from the back , the way you wipe away my tears and even the way you do the stupis jokes and make me laugh. you're one of a kind , i swear for all my entire life i never own someone like you. and lucky , you're the first one who able to own my heart.

please dont go , im counting on you.

someone pls pinch me and tell me that im not dreaming. well finally , after been through thick and thin , right or wrong , im legally yours. you have no idea how much i love you even sometimes im not capable to show you with acts and words but swear deep inside , i love you and i always do sayang ;) thank you so much for being a new episode of my life and thanks for lighten up my life , ilham rahmanda :)

your exsistance is my exsistance . if i lose you , i'll lose myself.

till death do us apart , god willing.

hai saya bini orang :DD

status : in a relationship to married (:

24th december 2010.

alhamdulillah syukur ke hadrat illahi , semuanya berjalan dengan lancar bia pon kelam kabut sikit , tp alhamdulillah lepas selesainye majlis akad nikah , hujan turun lebat gile . nenek aku kate tu tande hubungan yg direstui and diredhai Allah , tu nenek aku yg cakap la kan , bukan aku.

alhamdulillah ku panjatkan syukur skali lagi , setelah lame dirancang akhirnye sume mjadi knyataan and status aku skrang sudah pn begelar sorang isteri * ayat dh mcm dlm majalah mastika =.='

okay utk tk mngeruhkan keadaan and tk penatkan dri aku utk mnjawab soalan2 korang , aku na jelaskan sikit kat sini ye anak-anak. bukan aku tknk ajak korang ke akad nikah tuh, tp utk makluman korang , tu bukan majlis kenduri pon smpai aku na kne jemput satu batillion org. aku nikah kat jabatan agama daerah petaling shah alam , so dlm bilik tu kne ad pasangan pengantin, 2org saksi and wali je. yang lain tk perlu laa semak2 kan, bilik tuh pon mane mampu na muatkan ribu2 orang, zz tu bukan TRUMP TOWER , tu jabatan agame je bro.

insyaallah bile da ad rezeki and dh abis blaja kang , kitorng bwat aa knduri and time tu kalau aku tk jemput korang , korang bom rumah aku pn tkpe , so pasni jgn na bwat2 ayat sentap seperti "sampai hati tk ajak" .. haihh penat na jawab tau tk. anyway to whom yg wish congrats sume, thanks a lot okay. i really appreciate it.

eh eh why so sudden na kahwin ni or dalam bahase melayunye apesal tibe2 na kawin ni? <--- pertanyaan yang mula2 aku jawab ngn tenang dan tibe2 aku bertukar kepade mood annoyed bile dh ulang2 dibanjiri soalan yg same. lah salah ke aku na kawin dlm umo aku 21thn ni? mst korang pk aku ni gatal na kawin cepat , haha if gatal pon bukan masalahnye jatuh kat bahu korang en? (: bile dh smpai seru and jodoh da smpai , nape na lewatkan? baik cepatkan bnde yg baik kan, so dgn ini aku mngambil keputusan utk menamatkan zaman bujang terlajak aku. haha so skang aku dah sah jadi isteri orang , syukur alhamdulillah :') aku totally tk kesah ap org na ckp sbb when no one believes you , you have to believe yourself :)

ni ade sedikit tatapan umum supaya korang tk kecewa dan kempunan , huehue

hai ni bakal suami saya , ilham rahmanda dan yg tembam tuh saye la, nur amanda :) , ni sebelum akad nikah ye , konon2 tk boleh pegang pegang tangan , jage tatasusila la kononnye

photo # 1 and 2 : bacaan taklik , photo # 3 : sign perjanjian taklik , photo # 4 : dga sikit ceramah dr ustaz ariffin tu pasal tanggungjwb2 dlm perkahwinan , konon kusyuk :D

lafaz nikah *aku terima nikahnye nur amanda bt ibrahim dengan mas kahwin blah blah blah , phew skali lafaz plak tuh kan :D pastu bace doa selamat :')

*sarung cincin , ye tu adelah jari aku ok, bukan hotdog yang disarung cincin , zz mmg kelihatan seperti hotdog tp hakikatnye itu adelah jari2 pendek ala2 cacat aku, haihh

*cium tgn , cium dahi . barulah suami isteri kan.haha

okay da selesai pesta muda mudi dalam bilik akad nikah , lega rasenye sume bejalan dgn lancar , tkde gugup atau sawan babi :D semuanya selamat , alhamdulillah.

oh lupe plak tulang belakang atau krew2 penggambaran , haha ceh tkde laa ni family kedua belah pihak , kawin tkde restu payah kan :)

all photos are taken by ahmad muhsin , credit.

muka dan aksi aku dah mcm queen control dah kan , hahaa

*tuh bukan pipi , tu babi bergayut. sial tembam gile. muka happy je da kawin , padahal tanggungjwab tknk besaaaaaar punyee la kan =.='

*dah macam keling kawin la kan , aksi2 dh mcm bollywood. bahaha

*driver yang mmbawa pasangan pengantin , haha

nah ambek , semua orang terkejut. tp nasib baik tkde aa smpai kne serangan sakit jantung , haha

lepas ni bermulalah perjalanan hidup atau karier aku as a wife , harap2 bole laa jadi bertanggungjawab sikit kan , same same la kite doakan . hahaha

tiny little thing ♥

you make me feel beautiful - iloveyou for that (:

you're the answer to my pray ;')

14dec2010 tuesday

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when i see your face , there's not a thing that i would change
cause you're amazing , just the way you are ♥

tysm sayang , just like the way you are. you're too amazing to describe with a word . ilysm my heartbeat.

i need someone to talk , but you're never there ,

you know who you are , im missing you mr tulio tanaka wannabe ;(

i dream of you each night i fall asleep and now im afraid to fall asleep because it's you i see whenever my eyes closed -_-

2 july ,
it's a day that full of stressful motherfucker things. stop bugging me psycho . everytime i try to spell your name , i spell it H-A-T-E ! it's over between me and you, face it and move on.

semalam - duapuluhjunduaribusepuluh.

you usap usap kpale i time tido and say sorry if you ever hurt me.
you kiss my forehead as usual and wish goodnight.
you hold my hand tight and ask me to come close and you hug me.

if i could change one thing , i will never make the mistakes i've done , i'll pause the happiness and skip the sadness.

**there's something hold this relationship , it's the feelings.

25june onwards , ilham rahmanda

okay at the moment ,

i have nothing to update but refresh .

while im writting this , you sleeping like a baby and while you reading this , i want you to know that i miss the good times we had. okay here's the issue , i dh na reg fr next sem while you'll extend your semester. means, i will jarang jumpe you, maybe once a week. tuh pn kalau ade kan. a lot of things i'll be remembered ats byk sebab sebab tertentu , here we go :

1. kite pg class together,balik same same. i kejut u,u kejut i.
2. i slalu bengang pagi2 bcoz u dh bgn tp u tdo balik sedangkan class pukul 8.30am
3. dlm class, u slalu duduk sebelah i. tgk glagat budak2 class
4. pagi2 b4 class kite bfast kat cafe bedal nasi goreng + telo mata . ok, i extra ayam, haha
5. then assignment sume kite buat and submit same2
6. test and quiz kite main toyol. i tiru u , u tiru i :)
7. i slalu pinjam pemadam u sbb pmadam i slalu hilanglunch paling best kaki ayam masak rendang . HAHA
8. kite bgadoh dlm class , jeling sane jeling sini
9. time maths kite berebut duduk sbelah siva * siva budak pandai , haha

** ad byk bnde lagi sbenarnye kalau na list down , tapi next semester everythings changed and you're no longer here :

1. i akan pegi class sorang2 , tyah na kejut u pagi2 lagi
2. i takkn bengang lg pasal u slalu tetido balik
3. i tak dok sebelah u lagi , u dh tade dlm class :(
4. dh tade org na teman i bfast kat cafe pagi2 , rase nasi grg pn dh jd ta sedap. hihh lagi aa i sedih
5. skang i submit assignment i without youu -_-
6. skang dh ta bole main toyol, i janji i study b4 quiz & test
7. u dh tade, so i kne jage pmadam i spy ta hilang lagi
8. sape na teman i makan nasi cmpur kat cafe? ;(\i dh tade kawan na bgadoh and bising2 lagi
9. skang kite tayah berebut lg, tnggal i sorang je dok sbelah siva

** i sedih you tade , i tatau cmane na carry on. sbb slalunye kat faculty tu i berdua ngn u. kwn2 mmg aa ramai, tp slame 2tahun i pegi class and balik ngn u sume , i jadi ta biase kang. tp ap pn , you're still the best and irreplacable :)

• sampai lecturer teknologi elektrik pn pnah ckp kat i kan , " eh amanda kalau awak tak dtg class , ilham pn ta dtg class. kalau awak dtg class , ilham mst dtg . korang mmg bersubahat ke? " see i dh terbiase dgn you. lec pn boleh nmpak bnde tuh kn -__-

i miss the good old times, smalam i sebak bile cakap ngn you face to face. sorry , i rapuh . thanks for the accompany last night at my place. i tau u dh byk korban byk bnde utk i. you pn dh masuk kat family i , thank you for being the most outstanding among my ex-bfs before. you paling baik kan babe :) tyvm.

** i post this shit just to assure you that you have a very special place in my life even we're no longer together , thank you for being everything and pull out the very best in you , endless ty ♥

you're the best thing i never knew i needed ,

dear you ,

it only takes a minute to get crush on someone , an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone but it takes a lifetime to forget someone like you. you're such an angel to me.

you are the only reasons i get up in the morning , i wanna thank you for being the best among the rest. and i can always rely on you when everyone has walked out. you give me strenght to pull off everything.

i told you, the word 'sorry' from me wont change anything. but lucky i still have you as the closest one , i heart you ilham rahmanda :)

dulu , kini dan mungkin selamanya :)

ilham rahmanda , kawan baik yg teramat baik :)
bapak aa beruntungnye dapat kau as my special one , someone yg ta henti2 bg aku support smpai skarang. kau aa ex aku, kawan aku dunia akhirat and kau aa satu satunye org yg rapat ngn aku doh :) terima kasih sgt sgt weh, kau jgn na kembang bontot sgt derr xD

dulu kau org yg paling dekat ngn aku, aku sayang kau mcm aku sayang dri sndri. skarang pn same aa, bnde takkn berubah. cuma in a different way la agaknye ;) dulu becinta ta ingt, bile masalah dtg masing2 na salahkan masing2. kau salahkan aku, aku salahkan kau. padahal dua dua sama je gampang :D byk bnde yg jadikan lg rapat , tp bile masenye dh tade jodoh , kite terpisah ikut haluan masing masing. tapi still smpai skang kite keep in touch , berkawan and aku harap bnde ni kekal bia pn aku cube na jauhkan dri tp makin aku na jauh makin aku trase dekat ngn kau. tahniah weh , kau dah layak tersenarai dlm BFF aku and kau la BESTFRIEND OF THE DAY. HAHA

yea aa, kadang2 aku tau kau rindu na gaduh ngn aku, haha tp at last kau gak yg kalah sbb kenyataannye , TAURUS SELALU TUMPAS DI TGN LEO , kau kne ingt tuh, sbb tuh kau pilih TAURUS tp bnde ta kekal , kahkah. kalau aku tgk balik photos aku ngn kau, kdg2 aku tergelak weh. byk bnde kite menipu. kite ckp kite adik bradik (aunty umah sewa) , kite cousin (kat lecturer unisel) padahal aku pn tatau ap status kite smpai la akhirnye kite amik kputusan na bwak haluan masing masing kan b :) tp aku beruntung and bertuah aa kot sbb kau penah ad dlm life aku n bwat aku happy slame 3years nih. kau dh byk berjasa doh, kau support aku bile aku down. kau aa org yg aku carik bile aku need someone to talk and share. nama pn dah na same aa kn (amanda , ilham rahmanda) haha maybe kite ni adik bradik terpisah doh ;) aku menangis and gelak sume ngn kau, time aku sakit kau aa paling care and bnde yg paling bwat aku terharu bile aku sakit kaki dulu. time aku tetido aku tdengar kau doa doa sikit ;

"ya allah, biar aa aku yg sakit , bukan amanda" - haha sweet babi, sumpah ;'(

gile terharu weh sial bile aku dga kau doa cmtuh.

tapi jodoh kite ta panjang kan b, but still we're friends. masalah kau,masalah aku gak.no matter what aku sayang kau doh , bersyukur sgt sbb kau pena muncul dlm life aku. haha terima kasih utk semua , byk bnde remain as secret kn b, kalau digembar gembur bole menimbulkan kontroversi :) ye ye, i love you babe :)